it's just another boring day at home.hilary duff is booming on the radio with amaturerish vocals.sister is stuck in the room doing god-knows-what.father is sleeping and I'm here in front the radiation-emitting machine.ahh.mundane activites of my existence.

I just don't know what to say.so far life is suckish. i.e: hectic.MAD.CRAZY.draggy.TOO draggy in fact.sometimes I tell myself if I should drop my current subject combination.everytime I bring myself to open a textbook,the words glare back at me.like they're saying: "DO THIS NOW!" or "YOU'D KNOW US BETTER" sec 3 by right should be one fun year.but ironically,I'm not enjoying myself that much.who knows?things may change for the better.or for the worse.

some lyrics off hilary's songs which make sense to me:

go on get out of my head
i'm on the wrong side of a parallel universe
am i alive or just dead?
i've been somewhere in the dark
living in a crash world
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i've been hiding out for miles
underneath this smile
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seems like everything's the same around me
then i look again and everything's changed
it's so not real
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sometimes i'm not sure who i am
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here i am again
talking to myself
sitting at a red light
both hands on the wheel
how am i supposed to feel?
so much running through my mind
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hiding away.

THAT empty feeling.