hmmm i'm wearing my brand new black court shoes, courtesy of the SAF and mummy. (: heh in preparation for soldiership enrollment this sunday. and may i remind you that being involved in this is totally not a matter of brainwashing. wth?!

so anyway i'm emoing now and again because no matter how i try to do well, there will ALWAYS be people better than I. sure everyone loves the feeling of being #1 but time and time again it's beyond my ability. sure i am good at something but... do i have to repeat myself?

VJC was an old dream, MJC is my current goal, TPJC seems like reality to me

so anyone wanna join me? talk about lack of self-motivation...

or maybe it's God's will to let me get this final wake up call before my life takes an unexpected spiral into oblivion. (gah who cares if i'm not making any sense here)

mymymymy